“Many of our fears are tissue-paper-thin, and a single courageous step would carry us clear through them.”
– Brendan Francis
I received this quote in an e-mail this morning, and it’s quite apropos for today. While I technically started on my quest after yesterday’s blog, today is truly Day 1. My fear of succeeding, or fear of failure (I still haven’t figured that one out yet), truly is paper thin. My initial step today towards conquering my subconscious and leading a healthier life will carry me through, and today I honestly believe that. Has anyone seen the musical “Wicked” or at least listened to the music? There is a song called “Defying Gravity”, and one part of it truly expresses how I feel right now… “Something has changed within me, something is not the same. I’m through with playing by the rules of someone elses’ game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, it’s time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap”. That is my song for the day. Granted, the character who sings that song in “Wicked” becomes the Wicked Witch of the West, but let’s just not think about that part.
Okay, so what have I changed since yesterday’s blog? Well, usually I binge eat when I’m at home by myself, and my hubby is at work (not all of the time, but enough to have me mention it). So, yesterday when I ate something resembling dinner around 6/6:30, I didn’t eat any more food for the day. When I got home around 7:30/8, I wasn’t hungry, so I didn’t eat. Simple enough, right? Well, while simple, it was still a step in the right direction for me. I am going to make an effort to not eat after 6/6:30 from here on out. Also, yesterday I decided that my carb intake has been too high, so I’m going to try and reduce my carbs. Today so far I’ve only had a Think Thin protein bar (which has carbs), and I’m going to try to not eat too many more carbs in the day. I’m also trying to consciously drink more water.
This is what I brought with me to work today to eat:
1. Think Thin protein bar
2. Apple
3. Three slices of Muenster cheese and some pepperoni
4. Single serving of frozen corn
4. Organic fat free chocolate yogurt
The pepperoni has too much fat to eat regularly, but I was trying to accommodate my new way of life with what was actually in my fridge/freezer/pantry.
Let’s defy gravity! You CAN do it!
-200lb Princess